I went out to the shops with today. The last place I went past was the fish/seafood store, and out the front of it they had all manner of fish, lobsters, etc. One of the trays we walked past had these rows of mud crabs in it, with their legs/claws bound to them with string. The string was used because most of the crabs were, in fact, still alive. One of them looked at me. Now, I don't really know how well crabs can see, but I swear that this crab would have been begging me for help if he could. He was twitching.

I don't know whether to be more horrified and angry at the people who did that to these crabs, or disgusted with myself for not trying to do anything about it. The end result was basically leaving the shop, and me bawling my eyes out in the car on the way home. Seriously, just when I really didn't need to be more disillusioned with the world. I know this sounds like a really childish reaction, but that little crab I saw is probably going to end up decapitated and on some guy's plate by this time tomorrow and I can't do a fucking thing about it. He was twitching...twitching. And staring at me.

As if that wasn't enough, my mum also told me this afternoon about this Chinese Restaurant that was on TV last night: there was this cooking contest where the entire point of the game was that the fish was still alive when you served it up on the plate. Now I don't know about you, but personally, I find this sickening. Scaling, decapitating, and cooking a live animal. And they showed it on television!

I'm going to bring my rant to a close now, because if it's any longer then I know no one's going to read it, and I also know that the two cases I mentioned are probably trivial compared to all the other atrocities going on in the world, but seriously, I still don't think I'm overreacting...these are 'small' things, which means that somebody could probably change them, and yet they still get fucking ignored...I still feel awful for walking away from that crab...

So I know that someone reading this is probably going to be thinking something along the lines of 'welcome to the real world', and unfortunately, I do realize that I'm not living in a fairytale...but does that mean that we shouldn't still notice? Isn't it more childish to ignore things?

~Cee